Yesterday I saw the RE for my start-up blood work and ultrasound. The whole thing was non-eventful. Apparently my uterus looks “gorgeous” and my ovaries are looking less PCO-like. Now I wait until CD21 and start my Lupron Injections.
I give HJ her trigger shot tonight then she has her IUI tomorrow. We always worry about timing. IUI too late, IUI too early, follicles too big, not big enough?… the minutiae of it all makes my head swim.
I am still trying to cultivate my inner calm (thanks to An Offering of Love) since I have a new lovely downloaded IVF meditation CD. Truthfully if both HJ and I get pregnant, I will be ecstatic (yet frightened). If only one of us gets pregnant, I would be equally happy (and most likely scared). I do think I have finally overcome my fear that I will over think each portion of a pregnancy. I suppose I feel that since our family has already experienced a m/c, we are due for a healthy pregnancy. Sometimes we simply have to live “as if” all the things we hope and pray for will come true.