Last week’s E2 level? 320
This week’s E2 level? 308
I pretty much knew I was in trouble when the ultrasound tech congratulated me on my nice thick lining this morning. (It is at 11 at present.) My response, “Uh, this is a suppression check.” Her abashed response, “Oh.” Yeah, I knew that was not a good response since my lining should be thin and my E2 level low.
The nurse called my voice mail this afternoon. She was really apologetic and said that the RE had no explanation for why this is happening. “It just happens sometimes.” Now I am likely to get a period before the transfer and before I start E2 and progesterone. It is pretty much looking like our thaw and transfer will not happen until the week after Thanksgiving. This is the oddest cycle I have ever experienced.
In a weird twist, I am not fretting. My thoughts are that maybe having a different kind of cycle will result in a better outcome. Also I had a bit of a release in my car today. I came to the place where I accepted that I have little to no control in this process. I am not the one who is in charge and I need to stop living and thinking as though I am. I surrendered. Now I am almost watching the process from outside myself which is a relief from the near constant self-doubt I have been living with this cycle.
Now I just need to order more Lupron.