Today was Joey’s second beta and the result was…… 672. That is a doubling rate of 33 hours. The numbers are looking great and Joey’s first ultrasound will be April 5. I have spent a fair amount of time looking at the beta numbers on singleton and twin blogs and (thanks Baby Smiling in the Backseat) have also plugged our numbers into betabase. Folks if the beta is a strong indicator of the number of babies taking root, we are going to be looking at twins! The idea of 2 babies scares me quite a bit but not enough to quell my excitement even the slightest.
Another thought that keeps popping up (and I really don’t want to dwell too much here) is that on March 17, 2008 I went in for an ultrasound and found out that the precious baby girl in my belly no longer had a heartbeat. I am so sad that I never got to know her. She would be a sassy toddler by now and would have filled the last 2 years with such joy. (Oh little one, you were loved more than you will ever know!)
It is odd to even think about the different places we have been from then to now.
- More jaded and tattered
- Long moments of despair
- Sporadic glimpses of hope
- 3 unsuccessful cycles (after that pg)
- Donor eggs
- Joey pregnant
- Stronger from all the trials
No, I never thought I would be here in this way. But I must say that it is hard to be too sad when we have a baby (or 2!) on the way..