Becoming a mom is exactly what I expected and also a million small and large things I never could have imagined.
Falling in love: watching my wife mother our sons melts my heart. Awe-inspiring. I think I actually love her more now than ever before.
Holding the boys as they sleep gives me a big warm feeling that sneaks up on me.
Scared beyond belief: Aiden is still in the well-baby nursery though he has lost 9% of his body weight. He is also a terrible eater since he is so little. Every feed makes me feel overwhelmed and inadequate as I struggle to get him to take even half an ounce.
Seth is in NICU. He has been on O2, monitoring, a heat lamp and an IV. He has now been removed from most of these things is progressing. Issue is that he had an incident of “forgetting” to breathe for a few seconds. Really? Forgetting!?
Flu season is coming and my guys are so little… Enough said.
Joey and I have each had a meltdown on separate days… Ah well.
Mama bear: I find myself asserting myself in small and large ways I might have avoided before… Like sending my family home the day the boys were born and only allowing the boys to be seen through the window. My thought was that they had enough challenges without being breathed on by a ton of people.
The sheer exhaustion. So much to do; so many feeds; so little time!
And now pictures!